jus doing me.

just need somewhere to vent. feel like I’ve bottled all my feelings up for so long they need to be let out.

A year ago today I left my family, my dog, my home and friends to embrace on a crazy adventure with the person i believed was the love of my life. Crazy how things change. I never ever would have thought i would pack a little backpack and leave, until i met Corey. Thanks to Corey, I have travelled to places i would only have dreamed about and witnessed 2 of the wonders of the world with my own eyes. I have a pretty impressive travel list and new found sense of WANDERLUST and i owe it all to him. However things don’t always go to plan, the person i was dead set on spending the rest of my life with changed and spending 24/7 with someone is so straining on your relationship especially at a young age. Despite losing my best friend, the person i was supposed to see the rest of the world with and having my heart broken, I have grown, in so many ways. I am more head strong and independent than ever and although I may have lost a part of myself the day things ended but I did not lose me. I feel like i haven’t given myself time to grieve, to actually accept that the person who once loved me has moved on and its time for me to let go. Ive barely cried and pushed the break up to the back of my mind because i don’t want it to be real. If i could go back and change it all i would, id have my best friend back in a heart beat, like nothing had changed. But thats never going to happen and I’m okay with admitting that i still need time to get over it, moving on is too hard when your heart still belongs with someone else whether they want it or not.

Now a year on, armed with the best memories and bug bite scars, I have my feet grounded. Just started a new job so despite the day dreaming of places I’m yet to visit, my time for adventure has to wait, so until then I’m gunna focus on bettering me.

JUS ME x